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When Life Got Real…

“FREEZE!” I will never forget hearing that word, five months ago today, as I stood in front of a friend’s house in south city St. Louis, while trying to pop the hood to a van. I had been up for four or five days, and had just done a gram shot of Ice about an […]

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Hatred Bred from Addiction

“LET THEM DIE.” “WHY ARE WE CALLING 911.” “THEY ARE JUST A USELESS JUNKIE.” “THEY WILL NEVER CHANGE.” “WHAT A WASTE.” The above sayings are all things I have read and heard in regards to addicts who have overdosed or those of whom are living in active addiction, in general. These are not the only […]

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This Too Shall Pass

Happy Thursday! Today’s Just for Today reading touches on anxiety. One of three definitions of anxiety, according to Google, is as follows: a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome Anxiety is something that has affected me personally for several years now. I have had anxiety […]

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Recovery is Selfish

Whenever you make the decision to enter into recovery, you are often asked why you made the decision to get clean. Answers come in various forms, such as for the kids, because I have to go or went to jail, I can’t afford it, etc. One answer most people shy away from is that they […]

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Music

MUSIC IS LIFE Music. To some people it is simply something used as white noise, a way to drown out the silence that we sometimes find ourselves in. To others, such as myself, it is life. Ever since I was a kid, music has been a staple in my life. My dad got a job […]

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A Funeral and a Baby Shower

How the hell are these two things related you are likely asking yourself. Allow me to explain. It makes sense in the end, I promise. From about December of 2015, when I first realized my other half, my Sunshine, was on heroin until October of 2016, a lot of thoughts and emotions raced through my […]

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Dear Heroin…

I was up last night and for some reason reading old posts from a support group I was in while my daughter (who’s now 15 months clean) was actively using. It’s funny how when reading them, they brought me immediately back to when my first love, my Sunshine, was still lost. All the emotions flood […]

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The Zombie Apocalypse is Here

I’ve used the term “Addict Zombie” before, and I continue to because it’s the best way I can really think of to describe what I watched heroin do to my daughter, and what I continue to see it do to others. It’s so similar to the pop culture depictions, it’s uncanny. It’s starts as an […]

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Dominoes Anyone?

“Even if you are a person who isn’t able to see the pain addiction causes an individual who becomes a slave to a drug that is SO difficult to overcome, surely you can empathize with her family; the innocent children, her husband who didn’t sign up for this, her elderly mother who’s health is in jeopardy, and a family that has been ripped apart due to the fighting. Surely you can see that every individual addicted affects YOU in some way when you really break it down.”

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TRUTH

What is truth? Everyone seems to be seeking it, especially in others, so let’s start with the factual definition, shall we? According to the Merriam-Webster Dictionary (Noah Webster may be a distant relative of mine so I’m kind of famous. You should listen to me, just sayin’), the definition is as follows: TRUTH: 1: a […]

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2017 BC Overdose Action Exchange: 10 areas for action in BC’s overdose crisis

Vancouver – In a report released this morning by the BC Centre for Disease Control (BCCDC), 10 recommended areas for action have been identified to help prevent illegal drug overdoses and reduce the number of deaths occurring in the province. ​The recommendations, which include measures such as deepening the involvement of people who use drugs […]

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