***This post was originally written in mid-March 2018, shortly after hitting 100 days sober. This update on 11/29/2018 takes place just shy of 1 year sober. After each section, I provide links to solutions to these early sobriety problems. Each link opens in a new window, so you won’t lose your place.

Early Sobriety Really CAN Suck At Times


In an earlier post, I waxed poetic about how fabulous things were since waving bye-bye to booze over 100 days ago.

While I’m still over the moon about how fulfilling daily life has become, I think it is also important to discuss some of the hardships that come with early sobriety.

Let’s face it… Sometimes sobriety sucks.

That said, here are 6 challenges that may be typical when you first banish the booze, and why it’s all still worth it!


Why Sobriety Sucks #1: Major FOMO (Fear Of Missing Out)

While I survived a 10-day vacation without a single sip of alcohol, I found myself feeling a bit jealous of others who could drink.

To be fair, I was with my toddler the whole time, which did make it easier.

Even if I wanted to get wasted, I totally couldn’t have because I was on mommy duty.

But I was on a cruise with hordes of spring breakers and they looked like they were having so. much. fun!

I was reminded of the carefree, liberated feeling alcohol provides. I wished for the lowered inhibition and heightened confidence they exhibited.

Some small comfort did come to me, however. I’d awaken early in the morning, watch the sunrise, sip coffee, grab an early meal and hit the empty fitness center. Those same party-goers would groggily emerge from their cabins, exhausted, disheveled, reeking of booze amid discussion of nausea and lethargy. That was all too familiar, too.

Still, I’d be lying if I said it helped much.

It was still a little hard to take, and I imagine it will be for some time.

Though I’m ecstatic at the outcome of vacationing sober and have no regrets, some part of me thinks I’ll always be a bit jealous of those who can have “just a few” and enjoy a small buzz the way I wish I ever could have.

UPDATE: At over 11 months sober, I’m totally free of this feeling!


Why Sobriety Sucks  #2: Skipping Social Events

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In early sobriety, I’m not yet comfortable throwing myself into situations that are alcohol-related. I also am not “out” as a non-drinker.

Nobody really knows other than my husband and one cousin.

Therefore, loose acquaintances and associates still invite me to events that I feel like an ass for declining.

For example, a couple of months ago an old coworker randomly invited me to a wine tasting with some of the other girls from work in celebration of her birthday. I would have loved to attend.

While my former job was extremely stressful, I really grew fond of all the girls and genuinely miss seeing them regularly.

This would have been perfect! But I declined because I knew I wasn’t yet ready.

This was absolutely the right decision, but it still sucks to feel like an automatic outcast. Like something is really wrong with me because I have to make these types of choices, unlike everybody else.

Perhaps one day I’ll be so far out of the woods that I can go to such events just for the social aspect. Or maybe I’ll grow stronger in sobriety to where I’m more vocal and shout from the rooftops that “I DON’T PARTICIPATE IN ALCOHOL EVENTS” (I think not)!

But for now, I just politely decline, and it kinda sucks to have to.


UPDATE: Around 7 months sober I finally went to a drinking party and stayed sober. It went REALLY well and I didn’t really crave. I even told people I don’t drink anymore and they were like “cool” and went on about their business… this gets better, yay right?


Why Sobriety Sucks  #3: Coping With Bad Days

On some level, we all know that self-medicating with substances is totally unhealthy. Drinking alcohol at the end of a bad day is never the answer, and rarely helps. However, I’d be lying if I said that I don’t miss liquor as a quick solution, no matter how fleeting.

My son, though only 19 months old, has apparently reached his terrible-twos a tad early. He has been a complete mess lately.

On top of that, he was ill for a week or so, then we found out my father needed surgery that fell right as I was headed for vacation. Other daily struggles compounded and I found myself desiring “just one” drink to escape it all. But I couldn’t.

Again, I know that’s not the answer.

“Just one” is never that for me, and never has been.

At this point, I can play the tape to the end. I know this song very well. Committing to sobriety even when the alternative seems preferable is challenging, and I don’t expect that to change.

Though I’ve since learned to relax without alcohol, the reality is that even though life is ten times better off the juice, sometimes I still want a taste.


UPDATE: I worked really hard to learn how to cope with stress without alcohol, and I won. Stress is no longer triggery. Check out 6 ways to cope with stress without alcohol!


Why Sobriety Sucks  #4: Constantly Comparing To Drinking Days

I become annoyed with just how much I compare every little thing now that I’m sober to how it felt when I was drinking.

This probably isn’t really a bad thing, but I dislike how obsessed I feel. For example, though I thoroughly enjoyed vacationing sober, on the way home I marveled at how much more relaxed and rejuvenated I felt coming home from this trip versus drinking trips.

I wished I could just… be.

I’d like to enjoy where I’m at currently in life without having the backdrop of how unpleasant things were before. It’s like the fact that I had drinking issues in the past is constantly on my mind and it makes me feel less free than I prefer.

I wonder if this will ever go away.

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