Operation Clean Recovery

The ‘Friends’ You Know

When we were younger most of us grew up with a general sense of trust and always looked for the best in people. Some of us outgrew that with age and experience. Some of us keep a general sense of those two traits no matter what life’s experiences have taught us. I guess it’s from […]

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Jehovah-Shalom

Hiding in shadows in my darkest hour, I begin to shake, cry, and cower. I turn to Him for His reassuring light, On my knees praying for His insight. I surround myself with His Holy verse, Continuing to pray, He lifts this curse. I find solace in the harmony of His song, Cradled in His […]

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Humble Me

I’ve worshiped idle gods and men, oh, how foolish I have been, to throw away wasted years. Now, I look to You through tears. I stand before You, vulnerable, stripped naked, and ashamed. Now, it’s only Your name I proclaim. I struggle with faith day-to-day. You’re the only one true way. Hold me steadfast to […]

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Daily Storms

Rain came flooding down and nighttime squalls blew. The shade of blacks and grays came into view. As lightning strikes it accents their hue, Large chucks of hail the skies began to spew. You saw the dark, coiling clouds rolling through. Everything in their path they ripped into. You watched in horror with nothing to […]

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Self-Control

  We as addicts never had any self-control. We always did what we wanted when we wanted, and we wanted it now. But it was our lack of self-control that got us into trouble. We liked to blame others for our problems and our situations, but if you think about it and ponder it too […]

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“Skittles”

Thirty years ago very little was known about the human psyche. We have come a long way in understanding human brain development and illnesses since that time. However, in today’s age, the new fad is to see how many new names we can design for pre-existing psycho diagnosis. There is a new prognosis for everything […]

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Drowning Me

Drowning Me Tonight I want to drown In everything I’ve ever used Sweet agony; bittersweet going down Suffer slowly in the abuse Let the nothing swallow me whole The numbness is all I know No one can save me So let go and set me free I can’t face this dark alone But yet there’s […]

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My Home

My Home My home passed on two years ago with a promise he made me swear to never go back home. Now I see that what I saw as a physical place and what I thought I found comfort and peace in wasn’t the physical address, it was him, my father. His dying wish was […]

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Gardener

Just a Gardener I was informed that a group I joined doesn’t “preach” at folks (paraphrasing) “I’m not a preacher baby, I’m a gardner… I’m planting the seeds of the Lord and His mighty light will help them grow!” ~S. R. Craig, 2018

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Buffering Loved Ones

Buffering Loved Ones We try to bury the teeth and claws, deep under the heavy walls. When they inevitably break through, we try to protect the closest ones to you. The hurt, anger, and pain we feel, we don’t wish for anyone else’s soul to steal. We know the tortures you suffer, so we slip […]

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Bipolar Chaos

A Bipolar Mind A bipolar mind is a difficult one and those that don’t have one will never get it. There’s no such thing as normal, we’re all mad here, but tell you a secret, all the best ones are . When we “feel” alone, we really are, but it’s because we’ve created the isolation. […]

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Not the Pessimist

“I’ve been called a pessimist for years. I’m actually not, I’m a skeptic, and realist first. Fairy tale stories and fluff aren’t going to move me. I’ve heard pretty words that dripped of charm and cyanide.” ~S. R. Craig, 2018

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