Operation Clean Recovery

A Funeral and a Baby Shower

How the hell are these two things related you are likely asking yourself. Allow me to explain. It makes sense in the end, I promise. From about December of 2015, when I first realized my other half, my Sunshine, was on heroin until October of 2016, a lot of thoughts and emotions raced through my […]

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Dear Heroin…

I was up last night and for some reason reading old posts from a support group I was in while my daughter (who’s now 15 months clean) was actively using. It’s funny how when reading them, they brought me immediately back to when my first love, my Sunshine, was still lost. All the emotions flood […]

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Loneliest in a Crowd

Is it just me???

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The Man in the Box

To love an addict is such a whirlwind of feelings, which is not my strength. I love so many so dearly though, I will try to articulate it for those who don’t as best I can. To love an addict is so addictive in and of itself, because those I know are some of the […]

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The Zombie Apocalypse is Here

I’ve used the term “Addict Zombie” before, and I continue to because it’s the best way I can really think of to describe what I watched heroin do to my daughter, and what I continue to see it do to others. It’s so similar to the pop culture depictions, it’s uncanny. It’s starts as an […]

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Dominoes Anyone?

“Even if you are a person who isn’t able to see the pain addiction causes an individual who becomes a slave to a drug that is SO difficult to overcome, surely you can empathize with her family; the innocent children, her husband who didn’t sign up for this, her elderly mother who’s health is in jeopardy, and a family that has been ripped apart due to the fighting. Surely you can see that every individual addicted affects YOU in some way when you really break it down.”

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Dear Soccer Mom

This is a topic I haven’t seen addressed much. I deal with a lot of mothers being the mother of a child in recovery…trust me when I say this needs to be discussed! We live in a society that frankly puts insurmountable amounts of pressure on mothers in particular. In New England, where I’m from, […]

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TRUTH

What is truth? Everyone seems to be seeking it, especially in others, so let’s start with the factual definition, shall we? According to the Merriam-Webster Dictionary (Noah Webster may be a distant relative of mine so I’m kind of famous. You should listen to me, just sayin’), the definition is as follows: TRUTH: 1: a […]

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