Operation Clean Recovery

Watching Her

I watch her standing up there. She does it like it’s where she belongs. She’s laughing. She’s still laughing while she says, “I don’t know why but this is just something I have to do.” I don’t dare go near her.  Standing across from her, I look straight down. I can’t guess how far it […]

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Getting Unstuck

When I was younger I took in everything around me. Not younger in childhood years, I don’t expect I was much different from anyone else. Having three sisters, we always found something to keep us busy. But as I grew into my teenage years and then into adulthood, I became a watcher. I watched everyone […]

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Perfecting the Art of Being Alone

One of the skills it took a while to acquire was feeling comfortable on my own. Whether at home, on the road or just day to day, being alone never felt truly easy. I felt disconnected not only from those around me but also from myself. It made me question, what can we learn from […]

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Being Alone Hurts, the Pain Can Help You Heal

Although it can scare us a bit to start with, being alone can help us learn a lot about ourselves, focus on our own well-being and grow as people. Being alone can be painful. Suddenly, you don’t have anyone around to accompany you on the difficult path you are walking. Why has everyone gone? Why has […]

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Everything Is Medicine: A Lesson From The Shamans

In 2010, my soul brother Nick Polizzi dared to take eight sick people who had failed to respond to Western medicine to the Amazonian jungle to put them under the care of three shamans. They filmed what happened in his documentary The Sacred Science. The trailer for the movie recapped the results (cue dramatic music) — “Five will […]

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The Irony I Found In My Coffee

I follow the same routine each morning. Every morning I get up and do the same damn thing. Today, it was the same. It was the same even though it was different. As a single Mom, I tend to question every step I take. I wonder if I’m doing the right things and teaching my […]

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She Let Go

  Somewhere there, between her beginning and her end, she got tired. It wasn’t the usual kind of tired. It wasn’t the empty kind of tired. She just came to a point where being tired was all she knew. She’d dreamed big enough for the world but was without resolve. It was there in her […]

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On Becoming

  I used to think that I had to be and do everything in a specific way, in a specific order. I used to think there was some chronological timeline that I was supposed to follow even though I had no idea what it was. I tried to live my life the way it was […]

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20 ways to reduce anxiety and live a happier life

1  Take slow, deep breaths A lot of people have a tendency to either breathe too much or not enough under extreme stress. A good rule to follow is to inhale for four seconds, hold for seven seconds and then exhale for eight seconds. Focus on counting, not on your problems. 2  Seek out nice smells There’s […]

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Unbearable

He came into the classroom I was assigned to, first thing this morning, just like he always does every other week he’s with his Dad. He tracks me down upon his arrival at school. This morning, he set his book bag down, took off his coat and tossed it near that pile he’d already started. […]

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Top 11 natural cures and home remedies for treating depression

One of the most emotional disorders which are affecting more than 19 million Americans every year is the depression. This is a mood state which goes far beyond temporarily feeling low or sad. It tends to affect one’s mood, behavior, feelings, thoughts and physical health. Disturbed sleep, loss of appetite, mental trauma, disinterest in everything, low […]

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Losing Control over YOU Will Cause the Sociopath to Lose Control Over Themselves (and Then Anything is Possible)

  You will never be allowed to have your own life being with a sociopath. The sociopath is always in your life, you are never in theirs. They lurk in the shadows of darkness, constantly monitoring every area of your life. Keeping tabs on what you do and who you speak to. The sociopath has […]

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