Operation Clean Recovery

Posts by Kristi Lynn


Artwork created and provided by Lottie Ellis Art. It’s said that pain changes people. It’s true. Although none of us want to feel alone on our journeys, to an extent, we are just that. Sure, there are people who can relate to this part or commiserate with that part, but no one ever really gets […]

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What They Don’t Know

“She has become so well versed in good-byes, the spoken and unspoken, the planned and unplanned, the teary ones and happy ones. Don’t be angry she begs, she surrendered and gave up long ago on anyone reading her, her life, her fears, her accomplishments, her gifts, her tears, her happy, her weird, her crazy, and […]

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To My Almost 7-Year Old Son

I had waited my entire life for you. I can’t even try to ignore the fact that somewhere inside of me, I always knew I’d have you. I can’t try to hide the fact that as time went by, I was saddened at the thought of your not coming. After many days and years had […]

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Doubt & Denial

Doubt and denial are two of the most damaging mindsets that exist. While doubt narrows our thinking from believing in the real array of possibility, denial leaves us in the disbelief of any or all of them. Doubt is the truth we refuse to let ourselves see, yet denial keeps us shielded from even trying […]

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Where I Come From

Where I come from everyone knows something. While they hold true to what they do know, most can’t tell you how they know it.  They know the important things, like the days of the week that take priority over others. They know the boundaries of the county line and which counties sit next door. They […]

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“Jealousy is an anticipatory emotion. It seeks to prevent loss.”         -Ralph Hupka, Professor of Psychology, Emeritus at California State University at Long Beach     Jealousy is an ugly beast. It comes at you with a fury, full of force and determination. We are all familiar with it. We have all […]

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Judgment vs. Experience: We All Judge Others

“Judging a person does not define who they are, it defines who you are.” A simple quote, right? It seems to get thrown around often. While I am a firm believer that unfairly judging someone based from assumptions or first glance is shallow, I know I am guilty of having done so throughout my lifetime. […]

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Saul Kane: How in the Hell Did He Get Here?

A Biography of Sorts, not Shorts Prior to his own personal recovery, Saul found himself battling his way through daily life. Unable to properly gain control of any one piece of his life, he found substances that would mask the pain for short intervals. Suffering from his own consequences of addiction, Saul Kane was faced […]

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Topography of Harm

“Topography of Harm,” Artwork created and provided by Lottie Ellis Art. She asked herself why there were so many blank pages, And why she was lost in her own empty gazes, She wondered if being found was a lie since fate was leaving her empty handed. It seemed as easy as breathing, sometimes even easier […]

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Recovery: A Look at What’s Being Overlooked

Alcohol. Like it or not, it’s a drug. It’s sold everywhere and used by millions. It remains responsible for the third highest death rate in the nation. While the focus has rightfully been on the opioid epidemic it seems that we may have forgotten that alcohol is a substance that is often abused. Although alcohol […]

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On Being Alone

While most people seem to find places they fit, I find that I just don’t fit anywhere perfectly or nicely. Maybe I simply refuse to fit anywhere. Or maybe I wasn’t meant to fit anywhere. Being alone can be quiet. It can be so quiet that is scares you. Other days being alone is painfully […]

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Nathan Buis: From Shame to Mercy

Nathan Buis:  From Shame to Mercy

“What the world needs more of in general is to help those that don’t have anything. To help those that don’t have the will to live or to get better. Everyone deserves a light at the end of their tunnel.” – Nathan Buis Nathan Buis. Maybe you’ve heard the name, maybe you haven’t. Maybe you’ve seen […]

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Addiction Heroin Jay’s Story

Gods Place in Addiction & Recovery

The Road to Recovery w/ Carpy Diem 10/29/2017

Cycle An Addiction Story

Neurobiology of Addiction by Bertha K Madras, PhD

Manders’ – Finding Comfort