Operation Clean Recovery

Posts by Kristi Lynn

Unbearable

He came into the classroom I was assigned to, first thing this morning, just like he always does every other week he’s with his Dad. He tracks me down upon his arrival at school. This morning, he set his book bag down, took off his coat and tossed it near that pile he’d already started. […]

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Dan Carpenter: Just a Guy from Pennsylvania

Attending high school classes regularly and being active in sports, allows for most of us to follow the paths that we are intended to follow as we grow into adulthood. Though all of our lives at home vary by degrees during this time, it isn’t abnormal for many stories to ring true to us when […]

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Inside and Out.

I’m not an addict. But I am in recovery. I’ve been around long enough to understand that most of us are in recovery, we are all recovering from something, in some way. My story involves depression, anxiety, codependency and abuse – but mainly depression. The abuse was the hardest when it was real. I’ll even […]

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Trust

Artwork created and provided by Lottie Ellis Art. For most of my life there was an innate part of me that told me not to trust myself. Not one bit of me. Maybe it’s just because I didn’t know how to. Over time, I’ve ignored this feeling. And each and every time, it took time […]

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Uncertainty.

Artwork created and provided by Lottie Ellis Art. It’s said that pain changes people. It’s true. Although none of us want to feel alone on our journeys, to an extent, we are just that. Sure, there are people who can relate to this part or commiserate with that part, but no one ever really gets […]

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What They Don’t Know

“She has become so well versed in good-byes, the spoken and unspoken, the planned and unplanned, the teary ones and happy ones. Don’t be angry she begs, she surrendered and gave up long ago on anyone reading her, her life, her fears, her accomplishments, her gifts, her tears, her happy, her weird, her crazy, and […]

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To My Almost 7-Year Old Son

I had waited my entire life for you. I can’t even try to ignore the fact that somewhere inside of me, I always knew I’d have you. I can’t try to hide the fact that as time went by, I was saddened at the thought of your not coming. After many days and years had […]

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Doubt & Denial

Doubt and denial are two of the most damaging mindsets that exist. While doubt narrows our thinking from believing in the real array of possibility, denial leaves us in the disbelief of any or all of them. Doubt is the truth we refuse to let ourselves see, yet denial keeps us shielded from even trying […]

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Where I Come From

Where I come from everyone knows something. While they hold true to what they do know, most can’t tell you how they know it.  They know the important things, like the days of the week that take priority over others. They know the boundaries of the county line and which counties sit next door. They […]

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Jealousy

“Jealousy is an anticipatory emotion. It seeks to prevent loss.”         -Ralph Hupka, Professor of Psychology, Emeritus at California State University at Long Beach     Jealousy is an ugly beast. It comes at you with a fury, full of force and determination. We are all familiar with it. We have all […]

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Judgment vs. Experience: We All Judge Others

“Judging a person does not define who they are, it defines who you are.” A simple quote, right? It seems to get thrown around often. While I am a firm believer that unfairly judging someone based from assumptions or first glance is shallow, I know I am guilty of having done so throughout my lifetime. […]

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Saul Kane: How in the Hell Did He Get Here?

A Biography of Sorts, not Shorts Prior to his own personal recovery, Saul found himself battling his way through daily life. Unable to properly gain control of any one piece of his life, he found substances that would mask the pain for short intervals. Suffering from his own consequences of addiction, Saul Kane was faced […]

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